2002-08-02 - 8:24 a.m.

Okay, since when did Denmark move to the tropics! Last I checked we were still supposed to be a 'cold' country, yet this summer has been absolutely amazing! For the past two weeks temperatures have been between 25C-30C (sorry, I have NO idea what that would be in F... approx. 75-85 I think) (25C is usually the max.) and though it has rained a lot, it's been thunderstorms in the night only. Can't say I'm complaining, although I wish I was able to go to the beach more often :)

Lars and I had a long talk recently because I was angry with him for still not having introduced me to his family. Turns out that he would like to be officially moved (i.e. have his address changed at the registry) first, and because there's an old loan which he has to repay once he does that, he's having difficulties finding the money. The thing is, I *have* that kind of money (thanks to my grandparents and great-grandparents I have a rather nice nest egg, so I won't have to take a student loan while at uni), and as I think I have some kind of right to do so, I have told him that he owes it to me to either a) introduce me to his family/friends anyway - I really don't think they'll care one way or the other where he's registered - or b) borrow the money off me (yes, borrow - I know he'd never accept me giving them to him, so that'll have to wait for a wedding present ). I can understand why he doesn't like borrowing that much money off me, but we've already been together almost two years! If I have to wait until he can afford to pay off the loan himself, I don't know how much longer we'll have to wait. (No, it's not an obscene amount of money, just too much for a 'poor student' to have available). Anyway, he's going to think it over until Sunday. I hope he'll chose a) as I think that will be most comfortable for both of us, but it's his decision and I really don't care much one way or the other as long as I GET TO MEET HIS FAMILY AND FRIENDS (sorry for shouting, but it *is* getting on my nerves).

I am a bit proud of myself though... I used to be sooooo good at letting people walk all over me. I am getting so much better at standing up for myself, and telling people how I feel. Hope the good trend will keep up :)

This is not a good time for my family :( As you know my Farfar (father's father) died Dec. 10th, Mormor died exactly 7 months later, July 10th, and last Monday my great-aunt died! I think it is getting to be a bit much! Well, Aunt LN had been ill for a very long time and clearly envious of Mormor, "she wanted to die too", so it was expected, and not too sad... but still... The funeral was yesterday, but I really couldn't go - to close after Mormor's - instead I babysat my cousin who didn't want to go either. Because of the heat, I took him out for an ice cream, making him ask, "Are you sure you can afford that?" Cute ;-)

I'm an active Christian, so I'm not afraid of death (although I will admit to being afraid of dying... pain has never been my cup of tea), but it seems unnatural to me. I don't understand how a person with thoughts and feelings, soul and mind, a *personality* can suddenly be reduced to just a corpse... I simply can't get my mind around it, but naturally it's been on my mind a lot lately, so maybe I'll start accepting it one day.

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